I broke someones heart and I'm the one whos more hurt?
I had my first serious relationship in my freshman year of high school. I knew it wasn't love, but I truly cared about him. We got along great, but he began to lose respect for me after a couple months. We took a break for one day, but we both realized we couldn't go our separate ways. Things were good, but I felt like I deserved better, so I ended the relationship at the start of summer.
I was doing fine for 2 weeks, then it hit me. I cried and wondered if what I did was for the best. I saw him once a month later at a carnival and my heart just broke at the sight of him. Now, its been 6 months since the break up and I'm pretty sure he's over me for good but I can't seem to let go. I continue to try and get myself out there to find someone new, but nothing works.
Someone else who's always loved me has come along and he treats me great, but I can't seem to fall for him. Hes never even kissed before and it feels like I'm in 3rd grade when I'm with him. No one compares to my ex though and the way the new guy acts is too immature for me, but he loves me and waited for me.
My mom keeps yelling at me to date him, but I just don't feel it. Everything's just a mess for me. I'm broken. Advice?