Why Am I Like This All The Time?

by Joey

Why am I like this all the time?
Ok so I'm 22 and whenever I'm alone at my apartment with nothing to do even for just five minutes, I start to get anxiety depression and sometimes I even hyperventilate..

Most of the time there is something I go do like clean, go for a walk, cook but that's about it. whenever I cant think of anything to do or talk to or hang out I just start to drive myself crazy.

I'll start walking back and forth getting a worried look on my face. I've been having stress with my ex girl friend, bills, work and a new girl who has a kid and wants to go out with me, but I don't really think of these things when I get like that.

when I'm alone at my place I feel like my head is so full of thoughts and stuff that I cant even focus on anything, it that whats driving me crazy like this? I cant really afford counseling and I have a hard time opening up unless I'm feeling like i had described.

Any recommendations? Please.