Im confused

by Jess
(New York)

I,M 15.. a freshman in high school. I'm so confused, I don't know who I am. I don't know what I wanna be when I'm older. I know I have a lot of potential and talents.. but its just clouded.

I jump from one thought to another, then I think about how I can figure myself out. Its the same cycle every day and I'm so tired of it. It's getting worse and worse it's to the point where I cant make friends as easily as I used to because I'm always questioning if this is who I really am. I always feel like I'm never good enough. How do I get out of this? please don't say "be yourself" because I don't know who that is anymore.

I have friends, and a best friend, and family who cares about me, but I'm always so doubtful and I constantly compare myself to my sister who is 18, found her future husband (not sarcasm).. and she has strong views on everything. shes very noticeable. I wanna be that way. I wanna be sure of myself like she is, but I'm not... my friends so funny, she makes everyone laugh so much.

I get jealous, cause people describe me as really nice and whatever. I feel like I used to be really funny and now I,m not. what do I do? please help me... I need it.