help

by sara
(towoomba)

so we met on holiday, but we didn't get together the first time we met. But when I saw him I thought he was the most intriguing person I have ever seen
with his long dred locks exotic rings and he makes all his own clothes
we met again 'coincidentally' at a festival and we got together on new years. Fell in love instantly

we are away from each other a lot, since he is not an Australian resident and has to keep applying for visas and doing woofing work

I waited for him for a month to get back from japan and when he came back, I felt like I had been waiting so long that all the spark died out.

is this the beginning of the end
I don't want to lose him. He is an amazing person,the most beautiful I have ever seen, there is 11 years between us

I think I'm just scared that he will hurt me and I keep testing him

please help
I hope this is ok, not like an opinion I just don't know who to ask.