by Elissa
I recently ran into a boyfriend of mine who I hadn't spoken to in 2 years. We were quite serious though our lives were taking different paths so we started to face a lot of dilemmas. My career was finally beginning to take off so I made it clear at the time that I was just as committed to my career. We ended up breaking up and going our separate ways though I always wondered about where it could have gone.
When I ran into him I had the misfortune of being introduced to his lovely new partner. I honestly felt sick. They seemed so happy and I was still single, on top of that my career was still where it was 2 years ago!
I thought I was doing ok until I ran into them. I honestly was surprised at how I reacted inside but I couldn't help it. I felt so pathetic and hopeless. I also felt guilty that I was completely incapable of feeling happy for them.
Ever since that encounter I seem to be a little depressed at where my life is. I guess things are all relative. I thought i was quite content until I realised how much better off he is now compared to me, I stared seeing things differently. How do I shake this off and get back to worrying about me instead of being concerned with what he has managed to achieve?